For months, I have known that I needed to make a change. My phone and computer have been running my life. An email comes in and my heart beats with excitement for someone that might be signing up for a class or asking advice. I hop over to Facebook and check notifications, scrolling for the latest news, then I click over to check stats on my website. Minutes turn into hours and before long I am wondering what happened to my day.
It is time to get back to my first love, spending time with Jesus.
Blocks of uninterrupted time alone reading His word and letting Him speak to me. I need to pray like crazy – for the women in my classes, for doors to open, for the church to wake up. I need to write and record all the amazing things He does transforming women. Watching God heal women, break bondage and free them from shame, and I should be creating a monument, a remembrance of who He is.
John 15:5 “Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing.
I need to get back to my roots.
When I was first called to minister to women about sex, I had the privilege to mentor several women in their marriage. I loved mentoring these women and in many ways got as much out of it as they did. I think that true transformation in ministry happens one on one in relationship. Walking alongside each other, encouraging each other, praying together and challenging each other to step out of the boat and trust God. I am praying that God will bring women into my life that want a mentor and along the way they will radically encounter Jesus as the lover of their soul.
So, it is time to create some boundaries for my phone, social media and email. The easiest solution might be to just throw all technology into the lake, but honestly, I don’t think that is God’s plan. He wants me to live in the world but not be of the world. He wants me to learn to live in the tension and establish healthy boundaries.
My plan starting today is to check Facebook once a day. Twice a day I will check and answer emails. Once a day I will monitor comments on the website. So if you don’t hear from me right away, you know why.
I will continue teaching as many classes as God gives me strength for. I will write twice a week to practice putting words to the truth about sex. I will wrestle with what I believe and process what I encounter in class. I will watch for divine appointments with women that need a friend or a word of truth. I will step thru doors that God opens – to speak, or share or write. But most of all, I will spend time sitting with Him, because without Him, all of this is pointless.